Unsettled

Today I am feeling unsettled.

I'm quite stressed over my 3 essays - which is normal, but I wish I knew how to successfully cope with that stress. I know all the theory, but my brain is not accepting it.

I also feel unsettled in relationships. Things are changing. In some cases beyond my control. It makes me thankful of my relationship with God. I know He is forever unchanging. But it still makes me feel sad when I see friends come and go, and those I thought were friends come under a new light. A big part of me cannot wait to get back to uni. I know now that my housemates appreciate me and miss me. I miss them too however much of a hassle they can be and however much of a hassle I am to them.

I also feel unsettled in my heart for the people in Asia. Such an awful tragedy. I want to help, but what can I do. I'd quite like to be an aid worker - going out and helping as much as possible. It's scary. For one minute everything is fine and the next everything is gone. My brother's friend was out there at the time, thankfully they had a 1st floor room and everything is ok.

I am encouraged at what I see of the world pulling together to help. When I last looked £15million raised by charities through the giving of the people in the UK - that's staggaring. £50million send by the government including money from the Queen. We can only pray the aid gets there in time. And I shall pray that God's will is done and that He comforts and is with all the people. It's amazing too seeing the locals pull together to search, rescue and sort things out.

I stand in awe at the natural power that God has created and I don't know what to say.

I think this has caused the tragic death of my cousin just a few weeks ago, to slowly sink in too.

Lord, what can I say?