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Not such a good day today.

Think I'm just tired. It was a long day yesterday.

Experiential was very quiet. Usually we talk quite a bit, but today we were pretty silent. Think it could be because we're drawing to a close of the year.

I was awful in skills group. I was being observed by the tutor and videod today as counsellor. I just didn't know what I was doing and we had two very long uncomfortable pauses. I just feel really inadequate today. I was trying to make sure I worked through the model we're studying (so that I can write my essay) but at the same time you're not supposed to have a hidden agenda and are supposed to just go with the client. It's impossible to do both! Think maybe it could be coming from the feeling of helplessness from work yesterday. I feel like I don't know what I'm doing! I need a robot to practice counselling on.

In fact I'd love my course if we didn't have to do the practical videoed bit of actually counselling! lol

*sigh*