Ironic-ness

Entertainingly, I have been at a conference Fri eve and all yesterday that involved healing - and I've come away feeling worse than when I got there!

The conference was at Manchester Vineyard and was called Signs and Wonders with speakers Jeff and Jan Jansen.

I felt slightly ill before I went, but put it down to being tired and a distraction from the devil following on from being Baptised a week ago, and going to a conference that he certainly wouldn't like! But no, this morning I woke (after not much sleep) feeling achy and manky and ill. I hate being ill. It's just rude!

The conference was... interesting. God was definitely there, but it was a little too extreme and hyped for my liking. I didn't really understand what the guy was talking about and it felt more like him telling stories and jumping round the Bible than actually teaching us anything. I guess there will have been people there who got something from it though.

But the thing that annoyed me most was the way people get carried away and swept up in the hype rather than God. We had emotional music going up and down, the guy kept shouting into his microphone, he went round the room hitting people on the head - some of which fell over, others didn't. People had all the usual manifestations, but it just could have been done better. I watched Mike Pilivachi's 'How to pray for someone' clip on the God Channel this evening from last years Soul Survivor, and basically this guy yesterday was completely going against everything I've been taught.

It annoys me that people hype things up because I know that it puts so many people off receiving God's power through His Holy Spirit in this way because it freaks them out, or disgusts them or whatever. God's Holy Spirit is an amazingly powerful gift that is incredibly useful and refreshing. But unfortunately open to abuse. I had to remember a lot to let it just be God and me, cuz he can work through anything and with most things in life, we have to disregard the stuff that's us, and focus on the God stuff.

Some cool bits of the weekend were getting a vision of God holding me under this right arm at the edge of the room while we watched what was going on. He was loving it, and cheering everyone on like a funky rap geezer and we laughed together. It showed me that it's ok if other people are doing freaky stuff, cuz he's got me and he loves us all and he just enjoys all that we do for him.

Also we had a fire/prayer tunnel where we made a circle in pairs, then one at a time people went through it and we all layed hands on them and asked God to bless them and send his fire on them. I was a little apprehensive, but in blessing others God was blessing me, it was like wow. Then as soon as I started going through I couldn't stop crying and felt an amazing outpouring of God's love as up to 200 people prayed for me.

So yeah, in summary, people are silly but God is amazing!