I'm finding it really hard living in two places.
There are times when I think, well it's only another year and a half I'll manage, and other times when I think it would be easier to stop uni and do something else.
It took me about a week to settle back into Norwich. Then having to deal with housemates and bills yesterday completely knocked me back again. It's a really odd feeling that's hard to descibe, but leaves me feeling so unsettled and restless. I like things to be sorted and I like to know what I'm doing.
Going back to uni is usually a quicker processes, although I'm a little uncertain about Jan. I think I'm going to go back on the 11th (in time for church) cuz Keith and NYFC people are all going to their conference, and everyone else will be back at school/work. I've got to be back for the 16th to work (one/two nights a week) but I don't have lectures again until the 30th. So it will be dead time with no reading list to prepare for semester two and I think that'll leave me feeling a little lost and uncomfortable.
So yeah, I'm not sure what to do. Tips/suggestions gratefully welcomed. Both for how to stop feeling so unsettled at home and back at uni.
I also find friendships hard as I feel like they're all only half hearted (sorry peeps). As I'm in two places, I only see people half the time and therefore feel like I don't have the close friends that I would like - or am not as close to my friends as I would like. So at times I feel very left out and alone. Not entirely sure how to remedy that either.
Most of the time I feel like I'm surviving, not living life to the full. That makes me sad, but I'm not quite sure what to do.
I thought I might do some voluntary work in York for two weeks in Jan, haven't got a clue what or where to look though!
I would say sorry to ramble, but I'm not ;-)
Thoughts v.v.v.v.welcome
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I didn't stay long enough to experience that properly, but I guess it's hard *hug*
You know you're always welcome round here/to meet up, would love to see you more!
I think you;'ve described what is a very normal response to the abnormal experience of living in two places at once!
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Thanks guys, appreciate it. I know it's normal. But I'm not sure what to do with it!
Thanks for your honesty. I'm wondering if what you're describing is a process of becoming an adult as opposed to "just" being a student? And I'm very unclear what you can do about it: I'm sorry- how useless is that?! I tend to always think that doing things that you like are the best things to do when you feel out of sorts but if you insist on helping others ;-) then I'm sure there's a homeless shelter or hostel that could do with a hand at this time of year.
(((H)))
Lou's coming to stay :-D
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